unfair!!

siao!!! im retyping this post..zzz.....due to my stupidness....i had wasted half and hour at here...zzz....but i chose to retype it because dont want to let the wasted time to become unvaluable....wawawa....

havent finish my chem revision..less left than 8 hours to study...another sleepless night....

went to school with my zombie look today...i know i looked so pale..i wanted to wear a mask but the weather is too hot..zzz...so..finally finished my biology2...yesterday when revising felt so unfair..we studied STPM bio for 1 and a half years....although i didnt fully use the time...but we studied a lot of chaptersss...in the end, what came out?? where is my Ecdysis?? where is my immunity?? photosysthesis, krebs cycle, ODC...and the most important which is my favourite===GENETICS....where are them?? my mutation, my mendels law....i wanted to use endonuclease to cut the DNA fragment!!! where is it?? where is the PCR?? insulin production??? teacher still say will come out 2 question for genetics... but they didnt even show me their shadow...and also those cyclesss...finally i can keep them in my brain..those enzymes...where the ATP and NADH will go in the cycle..i remembered them...wawawa...so unfair!!!!

and the structure question they gave us....what competition?? seed development?? u dont know i dont like plant 1 meh?? why dont u give us embryology?? where is the reproduction and biodiversity??? zzz....somemore what enzyme they give us...ish!! my structure question GG le...zzz...
but luckily the essay still ok..i manage to choose four..which i got a lot of things to write...just write anything that i know..dont care whether is correct or wrong...no time to think also..zzz....

and..something happened that scared me!!! i laughed myself during the exam..then a pangawas come and see my slip..noooo!!!!! so scare i will be suspected in cheating....i wont so stupid 1 lorr.....wasted 1 and a half year to cheat in exam??? ish....still very worry about it....i want my result..although it wont be nice...sobs.........

so...still suffering..fighting with devil~~hungry and sleepy...yesterday just slept two hours and looked like a ghost..zzz.....continue with my chem laa...dont know why i feel so relax reading chem..it seem so easy to me...ya....i know i take it too lightly..i dont want to accept the fact that all i knew is just the skin of chemistry....the flesh and blood....urgh~~i cant imagine the situation tomorrow...wawawa...

help help!!!

owh! before that...finally less than 1 month to end 2010...what have i done for this year...after STPM just left around 14 days.....hope i can use them wisely and do something memorable before say good bye to HIM~~wahaha......good luck to me~~!!! stay awake until 1630~~~~~~~

fighting!!

wahaha~~its0501 now and im still awake...
i think most of the bio STPM-mers is having their sweet dream now?? ha~how nice....
but im still awake fighting with actin myosin...

few minutes ago i had a war with the devil..He pulled me to visit the dreamland..luckily..dear Angel pulled me back..She asked me to fight for a while more...so i chose to post something at here..which will activates my nervous system and also secrete more brain juice..haha....for most of the people including me, online=charge battery right...wahaha....dont deny it...zzz....

i start to crap already...in wee wang wang mode currently...plan to sleep until 1300 then prepare then straight away go to school...dont want to have extra time to suffer and also for some question to appear suddenly.. i dont want to check back the notes...i want to take the exam so badly now...even since just now when i started to revise all the notes again...i wished the exam paper is just right in front of me so that i can answer it and passup that's all..all the papers can just come together...is better right...finish it in 1 week rather than suffer for whole 1 month..ish!!hate it!!!wawawa......faster come!!! i want to say good bye to STPM already...although i might miss it...huk huk huk.....

owh!!! tell you something that will activates me more...wahoho!!! i finally finished download the show that show us next year's TVB new series..wahaha..maybe im a bit too late...but...wahaha!!! looking forward to the 《回到三国》..ahaha...got 吴卓羲！！！wahaha.....the trailler is so nice..lol...i like the "double gas"..i have been laugh until cant stop while watching that...zzz....and some Mosses's series....and also Bosco!!! 2011 2011!!!! im waiting for you...but before that a lot of TVB are waiting for me also......

公主嫁到 五味人生 摘星之旅 刑警 谈情说案 读心神探 还有一大堆~~~~~
！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

see you all after less than three weeks~~ dont miss me too much~~!!

wahaha.......
someone is calling me...i better go now... action potential...im coming!!!

bu she de

just finished my 《No Regrets》..sobs....
made me cry again..saw those fans leave comment at the webpage..totally agree with them..feel so empty after the ending..like somebody had stole part of my heart..what else to watch after this..sobs...haha..is it too over?? but really lorr...so touch and nice..luckily the editor made them together..although just four years..like what YongYong said: even if its just one second, its consider forever already...（不明白吗？我知道我英文烂啦。。就是，就算只在一起一秒钟，我们已经是一生一世。。）very touch lor..when he told this to QingQing...cheated my tears...
anyways..their wrinkles quite fake..haha....and also the last part!!...

不知道将来我走的时候，谁会在天上等我呢？

那要看是你先走还是我先走。。如果我先走，就是我等你~~




argh!!! 喜欢~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
gonna rewatch it after STPM!!!!!! and also 《Rosy Business》!!!!!!!
wayne sang 《Rosy Business》's theme song..so nice...remind me of cai gao, sei lai lai and also pang hang...ahaha....remind me of redang too...we watched that during the jouney~~aha~~~~suddenly the song appear at the end of the show..quite surprise..but match...ha~~~~

kla bye~~

counting down in 24 hours

wawawa..i'm so scare..huk huk huk....
today all of them went out for wedding dinner and i stay at home alone to study..i finished my notes officially..i mean, i looked through all of them..but..i dont think i can remember..sobs...
just now when i was studying, my dad helped me to massage my head and neck..felt so warm...tears rolling in my eyes..zzz.....

he asked me : your brain got so big or not?
i know he is worry about me because yesterday also he saw me burned midnight oil....sacrificed those nice food, stay at home alone,facing books..i know he scare my brain will burst or stress until become crazy like those smart people ahaha....i know how to control myself 1 laaa...since last week i changed my mode to half-give-up mode already..so...just try my best lorrr....if cant get nice result also cant do anything 1 maa....really funny lorr....ask that question while massaging my head..like investigating my brain like that..zzz..

then,
i asked my brother: how if i fail ar??
i really scare..i cant even imagine what result will i get...
he answered me: cry lorr...
ha~~that's true...what else we can do??..wahaha..........see me cry~T.T

wawawa...help help!!! i am so scare~~~
went mcd again just now..i like to eat when i feel stress...wawawa......initially want to eat roti i love you 1..but no one want to accompany me to that mamak...i dont want to go down order as there have a lot of samseng-like people..zzz...so i chose mcd drive-thru...my first time at mcd..wahaha....actually not that scary as i imagined...i thought will be like siao people talking to some strange box..haha....the service quite nice also..better than kfc 1..because it will show you how much you have to pay...aha...

err..what am i doing?? i suppose to continue my gametangium...ish...they dont want to stay in my brain eh..so i have to visit them again...so that i will remember their face more...sobs sobs...they are so cruel!!! wawawa......

sot already...suddenly feel like blogging in english...my english really very bad lorr..i want to improve!! before this dont like to show my english in public..then..suddenly feel like...dont care laa...you want to laugh just laugh lorr..i cant see your face also.....as long as i can improve..

argh!!!!! wo yao si liao..hen xiang ku dan shi mei you yan lei..wawawa....wo ku bu chu..zen yang hao..hen xiang ba ya li dou ku zhou ke shi jiu shi ku bu chu!!! hua yu hai shi bi jiao hao da..zzz....dan shi bu ke yi yi zhi zhe yang..yao jin bu..bu ran shang liao da xue zen me ban?? wah~ jiang dao jiang hao ting...dou bu zhi dao hui na dao shen me cheng ji..hai wang xiang jin da xue...huk huk huk...shei lai jiu wo??? wawawawawawawawawawawawa....xin hen zhong..hen xiang wa chu lai kan xia..tou nao ye shi..shi bu shi man le??? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

 dont care already laa....better go to sleep now!! good night~~

Ending's eve

OMG!!

finally this show is going to end tomorow!!! 2hours's ending..cant wait to see how they end the story..i hope it wont be too bad..

sure i wont miss it la..although im going to have bio2 on tuesday , chem2 on wednesday and bio1 on thursday..three days continuously..which i havent 100% prepare it..i really could'nt resist it...if dont watch sure i will keep thinking until cant study also 1..so, in order to avoid the wasting of my brain juice studying for nothing..better watch it first..ahaha...i know some of u might be scolding me now..how can you sacrifice your result for this?? can watch after exam also maa...why have to torture yourself watching it on this time??

wahaha...i like ak..hmph!!

《No Regrets》

is a must-watch-series..it cheated litress of my tears....  yet, still strongly recommend it!!!!!!!!!!!

the best series in this year wahaha...

really hope they will win prizes also for this year..like last year's 《Rosy Business》..the best series of the year..and also the best main character..wahoho...

the most profound memory of me for wayne lai yiu cheung (just googled his english name lol) is the series《journey to the west》..ahaha....he acted as jv bat gai..remember?? let me refresh your memory...

tadaa~~~

wahaha....after watched that series i got bad impression towards him..that is, he is very hamsap..so whenever my friends recommend his series to me, i will be like "yer..jv bat gai ar?? dont want laaa..." funny huh??..i shouldnt be so immature as some of it really quite nice and funny..zzz...

after 10years++

really 180° transform lorr..like change into another person already..i mean the character that he acted larr..what u thought i'm saying the real him?? i will tell you hows the real him after i meet him k..hoho..siao..zzz

after watched 《Rosy Business》and 《No Regrets》

he really very yeng lorrr...aha....

yeng right...

disagree with me?? so u support the down 1 larr??

zzz

your wish lorr...

yiieeerrrr...hamsap lou..zzz

actually felt quite frustrated for the revision..i revised..but when i try to do exercise...still so many mistake..that's why i dont like to do exercise as it is very discouraging for me...huk huk huk..

whatever it is..3 more weeks to go..7papers are coming..

the same thing..

jia you jia you jia you!!!

felt better after 《NG》1 episode..

wahaha...

oxaloacetate!!

im coming!!!

530

心好重
压力大?
哈
我猜不是
应该是迟睡导致肝火旺盛
热到心脏兴奋得有点沉重



STPM PA2倒数少过24小时
还没开始准备
哈?
服了我吗??
很怕自己会后悔
是不是应该早点读??
老师都讲我们总把时间浪费在其他没有把握的科目
读酱多嘛不是拿不到A
为什么不专注在容易拿A的??
zzz
我也不懂
不crap了

yer
我在suffer扬在relax eh
你看
他就在享受着海风的抚摸 和阳光的温暖
我却在这里和睡魔搏斗
哇哇哇

突然很想念他
哈~
平时很少和家人sms
今天他突然msg我
搞到我很想念他
sms我讲他准备上游艇前往兰卡威
哈哈哈!!!
这个我笑了很久
我真的不知道原来langkawi叫做兰卡威咯
不是浮罗交怡咩??
不知道做么就觉得很好笑
傻

search到他住的酒店有这个

想起他的跳水纪录片
啊哈哈~~
很好笑

k咯
继续拼搏!!
加油加油加油!!!

凑热闹

我不想哭的 

可是大家都哭 

我也来凑热闹 　　　　　 

~~~~哇哇哇~~~ 

#(┬＿┬)泣! 

我哭 我哭 我哭哭哭  

其实也不知道有什么好哭 

关于学业 

我想我是真的看太开了 

不是好事我知道 

可是我还能怎么办??  

是因为"背叛"这两个字 

我无意间看到的 

不知道做么它们就出来凑热闹了 

被人背叛是什么感觉? 

背叛人是什么感觉??   

眼泪 

流吧 流吧 流吧 

再加水  

傻!  

读书啦~~

倒数两天!

STPM

来吧!!~~~~

也快点走吧~~~~

=DDD

Just march into the exam hall with your head lifted up. Victory is in your hands!

i like this..and i will!!

thanks wei wei~~

(lol)

No Regrets

I broke my promise..tvb is just like a drug for me..especially the new series "NO REGRETS"...i really cant stop once i started..

promised myself not to touch tvb until stpm over...

but i just cant control myself..

gave myself a lot of excuses and started to watch the 1st episode..

who knows...i continue to watch until no need to sleep..

because of this i stay awake since yesterday 1830...

keep telling myself after each episode i must stop but i just cant resist to continue...

what am i doing on this time???

i suppose to study until no day no night..

look what i have done??

我是自甘堕落

如果成绩不好是我自己拿来衰的

那么没有纪律

那么不守信

叫我读书读没有几个小时就睡着

煲戏竟然可以煲通宵

还要煲到现在还酱精神

我真的没得救了

。。。

T.T

可是真的很好看

哇哇哇

。。。

浪费时间

压力大到我不想继续

可以放弃吗？？

不可以！！

我还有时间！！

要加油！！

最近喜欢看其他地方中六生的blog

才知道不是只有我们在死亡边缘挣扎

可是有些人真的很轻松

很羡慕他们

怎么可以这样看得开

搞到我觉得给自己太大压力了

考得再好又如何？？

失败了又如何？？

哇~~

我酱想是不是看太开了？？

然后

最近一个朋友的blog都很阴沉

觉得他是不是太超过了

我想像不到那种感觉是什么

无法体会

可是就是

很想叫他加油！

真的

加油！！

但

我算什么

我们不是什么知心朋友

平时聊天都没有几句

我太鸡婆了啦

管好自己啦！！！

这几天都在幻想实现梦想时的生活会是怎样

一直很犹豫这个工作到底适不适合我

我不想要当医生的压力和责任

可是

我那么懒

真的适合我吗？？

想想下我还是喜欢

可能还没接触到所以想象的都是美好的？？

啊啊啊啊啊！！！

回来咯~

读书啦TJ！！

传说没有安全感的孩子会…

1.会爱音乐，非常非常爱
2.怕黑，却习惯晚睡
3.隐藏真正的心事
4.喜欢有口袋的衣服，否则会不知道手放在哪里
5.习惯抱臂习惯冷战
6.会突然不知所措
7.喜欢窗户，喜欢角落，喜欢蜷缩
8.喜欢写字和阅读
9.莫名的孤单，无法抗拒的恐惧感
10.不爱说话或很爱说话
11.心事放在心里最温柔的地方，有一个自己的世界
12.自信的面对他人，因为怕别人看见自己的脆弱
13.神经非常敏感，总是多愁善感
14.心地善良，乐于帮助他人，同情弱小
15.会有几个可以交心的朋友，而且他们很可能会成为一辈子的朋友
16.哭的时候被别人看见的话，会极力的掩饰
17.会很在乎或者很无所谓
18.会舍不得自己难过，却无法改变
19.会希望很骄傲地活着
20.会突然难过很久很久，又突然没心没肺地笑

毕业

毕业，是一个沉重的动词；
毕业，是一个让人一生难忘的名词；
毕业，是感动时流泪的形容词；
毕业，是当我们以后孤寂时候，带着微笑和遗憾去回想时的副词；
毕业，是我们夜半梦醒，触碰不到而无限感伤的虚词。

若干年后，
假如我们还能够想起那段时光，
也许这不属于难忘，
也不属于永远，
而仅仅是一段记录了成长经历的回忆。

 

偷下骨头

前天突然想到

是不是应该来个毕业礼物?

就上网搜寻了一下

我知道我是慢了一点

发现了一个从来都不知道的"秘密"

哈哈~~

以前都会因为懒惰想

最简单的礼物就是杯子

活了十九年才知道

原来

送杯子是代表   

一辈子的祝福

哇~

我从来没有想过咯

原来在不知不觉中给了别人那么多一辈子的祝福

哈~

想起那些曾经送我杯子的人他们都知道这个意义

就觉得自己很幸福

=DD~

 

哈~

是有点幼稚啦

相框也是以前的其中一个选择

就是

锁住爱情

锁住友情

今天听到老师说的一句话

"成绩不棒,不代表你们不棒!! 尽情享受明天,然后就直冲到终点~"

听了很感动

哈

我知道她是怕大家把自己搞疯

毕竟真的剩下不多时间就到高考了

不管了

让自己疯多最后一天

=DDDDD

	别管以后将如何结束 至少我们曾经相聚过 不必费心地彼此约束 更不需要言语的承诺 只要我们曾经拥有过 对你我来讲已经足够 人的一生有许多回忆 只愿你的追忆有个我

第一次

第一次带我的小黑仔出门eh

哈哈哈

他有点害羞哦

只敢躲在角落

怕被怪叔叔带回家嘛~~~

原来一个人在MCD上网是这种感觉

哈

挺兴奋的~~

~101010~

哈~

好美的日期

当我告诉某人时

他竟然跟我讲没有什么特别罢了

哇

那一盆冷水

zzz

 

可是其实也真的没有什么

可是，

你们还记得两年前的今天我们在干嘛吗？？

让我来提醒一下你们

就是

那个啊

时速200公里的飘移

哈哈哈

不记得？？

就是那一个啊

在酒店

那个啊

萍的OL look

就是那个啦

毕业典礼

那天我们都坐ron的车

他的飘移我永远记得

那种紧张兴奋

adrenaline在体内跟着狂奔

哈哈

庆幸我们都还活着~

我们的毕业典礼没有什么感人的话

没有泪水吧

感觉大家都很开心

毕业影片

毕业照片

老师的笑脸

怎么感觉上一秒才刚看过咧

两年了

是不是偶尔也会想起当初一起奋战的战友呢？

我好想你

好想你

好想他 她 和 它

“诶。这不是emo post 啦！”

只是突然兴起

想po一些毕业照片才发现我库存里只有这一张

唉~

往事不想重提

放心

有天一定把你们找回来~

先暂时摆出绝无仅有的你~~

那个发型很丑的不是我

你们认错了

（明明当时觉得还不错的。。。zzz。。。）

1030

第四度毕业

这一次会有什么特别的感觉吗？

应该没有人会哭吧

感觉大家都很开朗的

呵呵

长大了都知道

毕业不代表分离

那是考验

而我们必须做的

就是打胜仗！

只要相信就会永远在一起，不是吗？

哈~

不知道还会有多少次毕业咧？

期待~

今天应该很多人结婚吧

不知道

每个人都喜欢特别的日期还是日子结婚的

可是如果是我就会选普通天咯

如果已经是特别了再加特别，毫不起眼

反而如果把普通变特别

酱就多一个特别天了

又多一个开心日

几好~

哇~

开始胡言乱语了

oii！！醒来咯。。明天考试啊！

还在浪费时间。。

ish！

加油！

我又来浪费时间一下

睡了一整个下午

头晕晕的

眼睛很累

就一直想关

所谓STPM的TRIAL

渐渐走到了尾声

啊！

不舍得

好想重来

时间锦囊可以回到去年转到KHS的第一天吗？

不可以！

哈~

问爽的

这次的TRIAL

又输了

之前考的都是不完整的试

有这课没那课的

现在

一次过出完来

是还没崩溃

可是原来仅有的那一点点自信

又被收回去了

还有一个多月

怎样瞬间进步？

每次都会无聊的希望这个世界上真的有memory card可以塞进头脑里

不然就是叫弟帮我读

是因为压力大无聊病在作祟

压力

以前从来没有过

UPSR、PMR、SPM

我都熬过来了

这次我一定也可以

只是

压力持续增加体积却维持的感觉

很紧

快爆了

谁来duk我一下

最近都在家里疯狂乱叫

（是夸张了一点啦。。没有很疯，只有狂。。）

弟都讲我傻了

可是就是很想喊

然后每次不爽就像出去买炸鸡排

中毒了

炸鸡排竟然变成我的anti-depressant

这是什么道理

我好累

可是战还没打完

现在不是收拾残骸的时候

要加油哦~

最近常常对自己说的一句话

真的

要加油~~

(￣)︿(￣)

wahaha wahaha wahaha!!!!
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             。 笑爽~~

失眠

半夜睡不着，总是会想起很多事。想起之前约好要常常出来见面，不管有多忙，一定每个都要到。想起一起出去玩，一起喊 一起叫 没烦恼。想起你的笑声，想起你。。。

想起你下午对我说‘突然很想你’。当时超开心 还傻笑了几秒。

我，又失眠了。

今天发现原来‘我想你’这三个字的魔力真的很大。它可以让你一整天都甜甜的。
我们几时才会再见面？？


每次朋友在讲要去哪里要去哪里。。我都会很爽快的回答‘走咯！’。。感觉我好像越来越习惯酱了。。一口答应，过后又犹豫。。为什么会酱？？一方面很想出去，然后又三心二意。。唉~~想太多了。。我是怕会无聊。。上次第一次。。应该是第一次。。就是和另一班朋友出去。。没有彦萍美。。真的有种孤单的感觉。。很怕当时被遗忘。。去厕所也是一个人。。逛也是一个人。。如果我是一个人去的还ok。。但是偏偏有认识的人，然后各聊各的。。有点后悔为什么会让自己陷入酱的尴尬场面。。但幸好电影还不错啦。。

傻了，做么突然讲那个？？zzz。。。下星期又出去。。希望不会再有酱的感觉。。但也许，我也该习惯这种感觉吧。。。

很喜欢棒棒堂三军阿杰的‘冬牵’超好听！但没得下载。。zzz。。。

Got a bit accurate larr....

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

friendship

A 5 year old boy ask his friend what is FRIENDSHIP..


She replied:" friendship is when u steal my chocolates everyday from my bag and i still keep them in the same place.."

生气？

最近气人的时候都让自己的罪恶感暴增



每次气人的时候都会想起一部戏里的一句话

“每个人都是他们家的宝贝"

什么意思？？

就是每一个人都是他们家人的宝贝





就觉得很有罪恶感

讨厌人家的宝贝

想到如果人家也讨厌我

会很不好受

但是自己却。。。